woots! there's a lecture going on in my tagboard:)
thanks pam. i know you're really concerned about me.
but i don't think it was an infatuation.

definition of infatuation:
Infatuation is the state of being completely carried away by unreasoning passion or love; addictive love. Infatuation usually occurs at the beginning of a relationship. It is characterized by urgency, intensity, sexual desire, and/or anxiety, in which there is an extreme absorption in another. It is traditionally associated with youth.

wad urgency,intensity,blah or anxiety..
i din have those..
so i suppose it wasn't an infatuation.
and i wasn't completely carried away.
i knew what i was doing.
so please don't say it's ridiculous.
isn't stress and social stigma from school "things from the world"?
i know no guy is worth my tears.
but sometimes you just gotta let go right?
i can't fit everything in my heart and pretend i'm
strong, i'm fine. it'll only hurt me more.
i'm human.
teens do know about love.
we love our parents right?
we love our friends.
we love our pets.
so how can you say we don't know about love?
maybe we will show it in another method.
but at the end of the day it still boils down to what? love right?
yeah but i agree liking someone isn't what i'm supposed to do.
i couldn't help it!
it was just there!
give me time pam.
i just fell.
and i wanna learn how to pick myself up.